is this depression?
it’s anticipatory grief
it’s the loss of a future
it’s here-and-now grief
it’s a pandemic
it’s anger for having seen this coming
it’s despair for our chances of surviving
it’s regret for all i couldn’t do
it’s fear for my loved ones
it’s deep ambivalence about being alive
it’s exhaustion like a thirst in my bones
it’s numbness
it’s a muting of life
it’s an iron veil
it’s a yoke around my neck
it’s amorphous
it’s inescapable
it’s my new normal
it’s all i got
this isn't about anything, i just need to get some shit down. still don't have a job/income. i'm in a "hiring process" rn for this remote writing job and i've been putting a lot of my energies towards manifesting that. but it is taking waaaay longer than i think i...
TL;DR: Support my work on Patreon. This isn't going to be anywhere near as coherent as my last little update on post-graduation life, but that's okay. Everything in me would rather not write again until things get better, so just getting these thoughts translated into...
i did this spell last full moon and was pretty sure it hadn't worked. then, on the last day of the moon cycle, it manifested in the most beautiful way: with my community pulling together to support me financially through the last part of the month. so far, this spell...
this tea is named for my new friend mars, who recently moved to clearwater beach, florida. i made this tea for their going away party and it was so amazing i wanted to share. 9 tsp chamomile flowers 4 tsp hibiscus flowers 2 tsp sweet orange peel 1 tsp holy basil...