this isn’t about anything, i just need to get some shit down. still don’t have a job/income. i’m in a “hiring process” rn for this remote writing job and i’ve been putting a lot of my energies towards manifesting that. but it is taking waaaay longer than i think i have the stamina for. i […]
NOTE: most posts pre-2016 or so have been moved to the archive.
I might be starting to hate myself again (not really, but fuck).
TL;DR: Support my work on Patreon. This isn’t going to be anywhere near as coherent as my last little update on post-graduation life, but that’s okay. Everything in me would rather not write again until things get better, so just getting these thoughts translated into words is enough right now. Last time around I said […]
prosperity and abundance full moon spell
i did this spell last full moon and was pretty sure it hadn’t worked. then, on the last day of the moon cycle, it manifested in the most beautiful way: with my community pulling together to support me financially through the last part of the month. so far, this spell hasn’t brought abundance and prosperity […]
mars’ chamomile hibiscus friendship tea
this tea is named for my new friend mars, who recently moved to clearwater beach, florida. i made this tea for their going away party and it was so amazing i wanted to share. 9 tsp chamomile flowers 4 tsp hibiscus flowers 2 tsp sweet orange peel 1 tsp holy basil (rama) leaves 1 tsp […]
liberation and protection spell for incarcerated activists
on the day of the hearing, sing: let no evil come by you, [name] let no evil come by you will be set free today, [name] you will be set free all our love will guide you, [name] as you stand calm within the storm no evil shall come by you, [name] today you will […]
I used to hate myself and now I hate society: post-graduation reflections and jobless rambling
Society—other people, systems, institutions, culture—has so much more power over our lives than the average person gives it credit for. Acknowledging its outsized influence is devastating at first, incompatible as it is with a vision of the individual as master of their own destiny, culpable in failure and deserving in success. But there is a […]
on whims of vengeful starlight
Night stars are benevolent, unlike the pitiless lord of the day. Under the moon’s placid gaze, Sesylie can pull off her goggles and drink in as much ultraviolet as the heavens will grant her. Lest her absence become contested, she resists the urge to wander and sprawl on the chalky jigsaw flats of the Barren. […]
we should be rioting in the streets but instead i’m updating my resume: on business as usual at the end of the world
everything from then on out was going through the motions. everything from going to work every day to saving for the future to breathing was a charade performed as defense against the inevitable a tired eye closed to the light of the oncoming train a battered heart numb to the cries of the victimized child […]
Towards reclaiming my birthright, part 2: divest from cure, control, & contain
[In the first installment of this series, I talked about my politics in general and how the connections between systems of oppression and my personal experience have become incredibly salient to me. Here I want to talk about how that awakening impacted my attitude towards my various disabilities and how I navigate the world with […]
End-of-winter updates and things
It’s been pretty somber in the Fierce household this fall and winter. I would say I’m approaching burnout, but I know that boundary was crossed long ago. I’m fueled by sunk-cost fallacy at this point. I don’t want to be in school anymore, haven’t wanted to be for some time. Me doing something I absolutely […]
